I’ve Got Plenty of Work
Five words I watched fall out of my mouth unconsciously to a friend.
They surprised me.
And they’re true, but there were so many moments this year, months actually, where I was so far from these 5 words.
In February of 2020 I hosted the most beautiful retreat of my career.
It was different.
It was easy.
It was everything.
And it’s still working it magic on me.
Everything aligned, and then some.
The group was seamless.
Effortlessly connected.
Like a cool breeze blowing through my heart.
The staff went above and beyond the above and beyond of the above and beyond. The last night it literally felt that we left this earthly plane and danced in the high heavens for hours.
“This is not a yoga retreat,” she said.
“I know,” I answered, knowing exactly what she meant.
A thousand words exchanged in a moment of connection and gratitude.
It was so much more than a yoga retreat. It changed all of our lives. Mine the most, I think.
I returned home on February 20th.
I entered quarantined on March 12.
I don’t know about y’all, but we got scared over here in March. My roommate and I quarantined ourselves an entire week earlier than our state required us to. It was a scary and uncertain time.
So much was just beginning.
I can’t actually remember if I even saw a client for work between February 20 and March 12… and everything else I was involved in work wise wasn’t planning to pay me until mid May.
So you could say I entered quarantine on low funds.
Yeah.
You could say that.
My body is heating up like I’m preparing for battle as I write this. It was a scary fucking time in my life. Even trying to recall it is hard because I blocked a lot of it out with positivity.
And I enjoyed it too… we had the most beautiful spring here in Charleston that I have ever seen. Possibly the most beautiful spring that ever existed.
I didn’t have income for 2 months.
I didn’t put my hands on anyone for 2 months, and the only reason it was 2 months and not 3 or 4 or 6 was because I treated the only person who I was quarantining with: my roommate.
It was the strangest 2 months.
The first or second week felt like actual hell on Earth.
I went to very dark places, released deep-seeded identities that no longer resonated, cleansed many sides of my shadow, and questioned every decision I’ve made in my entire life, especially the ones involving business.
Yes, friends.
Do me a favor…..
Remember that every powerful woman you see in the world is questioning herself too.
Remember that every powerful woman you see in the world is doubting her work too.
Remember that every powerful woman you see in the world is meeting her demons too.
Just like you.
No one is exempt.
No one is better than you
We just have experience in battle. And the scars to prove it.
It was during that 2 month scary time that I also decided to start an entirely new business and release a course I had been sitting on for over 5 years.
I started finding less evidence to fear change.
I started finding less evidence not to take leaps that I wanted to take.
I started to rebuild before I knew it was all destroyed.
I didn’t know what was going to happen.
I could have crashed and burned.
But when I got really honest with myself, failure didn’t mean much. I was already jobless, workless, and broke. So if my course failed to sell… well, what was the worst thing that could happen?
Maybe I was brave, maybe I was realistic, maybe it was divine timing, maybe it was just a blip on the radar — but I did it. And it worked.
During that 3 week launch I experienced about every emotion amplified.
Releasing the course was like releasing my favorite, long-cherished, hidden-away item.
Releasing the course also meant being really honest about myself and my work.
It felt as if I was placed on a stage in front of the entire world and was stripped naked, and each item of clothing ached as it was taken from me.
Everything ached.
Everything was heightened.
I had liberated myself and it had been painful and pleasurable.
I heard a voice come to me during that time. It felt like an 80-year-old version of me, and she said, “This will be your favorite because it is the first and you’ll remember it forever.”
Sacred Alchemy popped my online course cherry.
And now I have plenty of work because I have finally put myself out there in a way that is truly authentic. I’m finally talking about all the things I only spoke about with one on one clients in quiet rooms with peaceful music.
I’m finally being honest about the work that I do.
I’m finally owning my power, wisdom, and experience.
And it was all triggered by a worldwide pandemic.
These words are not here to negate the tragedies that have befallen us this year.
This is a story of triumph against the odds. And we could all use some good news. I know I could.
I have plenty of work.
It flew out of my mouth with so much ease.
I started an entirely new business in April of 2020.
And in October I had plenty of work.
Miracles are possible.
Alignment is real.
And so are the doubts.
But just as Danielle LaPorte says, “Doubt is part of the creative process.”
There are only 2 ways to work with me for the rest of 2020:
Rent my Brain Mastermind: Integrate all you know and make it actionable
1:1 Mentorship: Learn to fly
Let’s get started, love.